Alcohol

i drank alcohol for the very first time in my life this afternoon. surprise? yeah i felt the same too! thanks to ella, amelia, abu they all.

this afternoon, i was very very upset. really. something bad happened in the morning, i don't wana recall the memories any more. it's just too...how to say? the criticism which was more than my capacity. and i really felt tired, or exhausted. commitment is not the main criteria, attitude of people is worse than ever. i felt tired, really tired. and what you can guess is, i cried again.

i can barely stop crying this time. i had withstand all the things throughout the semester and finally i burst into tears. it was actually a good thing, because i cried instead of behave aggressively. whenever i tried to stop, another person will come and ask, "why you cry?", and the tears will shed again. this routine was repeated for 3 or 4 times today, i couldn't really remember.

what happened next was, i followed ella to her unit in sunway together with amelia, mabeline, felicia, abu and ivan. they all played with ella's puppy, which is very cute and noisy (but i didn't dare to touch him, please la, i afraid of dogs k? even he is a small puppy, he is still a dog!). so i was screaming around and hide behind anyone's back, and prayed that the puppy will never approach me. but abu, he purposely asked the puppy to get me. for no special reason the puppy was damn obedient. he kept approaching me! maybe he found interesting because somebody was running away from him and screaming non stop.

i was very tired because i cried a little too much, i felt emo as well. so they passed me the blueberry flavor alcoholic drink. hey, it's tasty k? it doesn't taste like alcohol, because it consists of only 5% alcohol. it tastes more to juice or soda. i drank only one quarter of the bottle (how much is one quarter of 275ml? count yourself) then i felt dizzy. seriously, headche and dizzy at the same time. so i fall asleep.

i wana insist that i wasn't drunk! i just felt headache and sleepy because i cried. so abu, stop teasing me k?