Tuesday, December 29, 2009

I'm sick

im sick.

my throat is burning. i feel painful even when i swallow saliva or water. there's like a fire burning sensation in my throat that makes me feel so torturing. urgh. so, i could only eat porridge, no solid food. im so damn hungry lo...sigh.

thank god my fever gone d. headache fever is not good.

my voice is finally back! though it's still very soft. i cnt speak loud and long. very tiring to talk so much. kinda irony to my personality huh?

it's funny to see how brilliant is my mom to guess what i said by reading my lips

it's hilarious to see how my father communicate with me by body languages.

i hope i can recover completely tonight. so i can go camp tomorrow. feel so bad ffk yong they all. soree guys, i wana help, but my physical condition doesn't allow me to do so.


pray that i get well soon. i wana go countdown. i wana eat BR! i wana work this weekend. i wana go genting!

Friday, December 25, 2009

movies

yo! it has been a while since my last movie review. i watched two movies that i think it's worth to be recommended. (screw New Moon please!)

so first, AVATAR.



i have to say, this is the most fascinating movie that i watch in year 2009. there's a lot of other movies i watched before, but this is indeed the most satisfying movie i watched in cinema. okie i watched in mid night, so it was torturing as cinema was freezing cold. so i was shivering and praying that the movie can end faster.

anyway, the graphic was good. u would be captivated by how unique the plants and biodiversity in the movie. because it was in the other planet, the director can allow his imagination go wild, and TADDA! the very awesome forest with gigantic plants, animals, plants that can illuminate in the dark, blue tall natives, dragon/birds and so on.

fyi, i kinda like the dragon/birds in the movie. one, coz they have no feathers. two, they are really huge and aggressive. three, it look so chunt flying on air with the dragon/birds! somehow it reminds me of Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. the dragon kinda look similar. is it because of the graphic animation that make them look almost the same?

i have one of my favorite scene. when they are appealing for power from their Eywa (mother of nature) to rescue one of the human, all of them sat on the ground and chant some spell. the scene was very impressive! everyone moves their body synchronously, and WOW. i dono hw to describe that, but it was completely mesmerizing! i can feel their spirit in there.

besides, i have a feeling that the story in this movie refers to lotsa natives in African. like how they pray after they kill the animals and so on. though the storyline is kinda predictable, but what makes it worth for the price is the graphic and sound effect. i really like their sound effect. some language that i din noe, makes it sound more mysterious. and i LOVE mysterious stuff. muahahaha. wana download it later. or few days later. if im nt mistaken, the moral value behind this is about environment and stop fighting against power.

but the beginning was too draggy, and that was the only critic that i could think of. feel like watching it again with 3D! must be damn chunt! yayyy!

ps: i love the ending. straight to the point without further elaboration. GOOD!
pps: Na'vi = Ivan!

i rate it 9 over 10

and next, Sherlock Holmes.



i have read the novels before. and i would say, it's not what i have expected. in a good way though.

i have never thought Watson can look so gorgeous! wowww, when i read the novel, i pictured Watson as a ordinary looking guy, with specs, gentle doctor that helps Sherlock Holmes anytime. but, this Watson was much more good looking than i thought! and he's good in fighting too! me likey!



okie, back to the topic.

this movie was okie. lotsa fighting scene. i kinda like Robert Downey Junior as Sherlock Holmes. he was mischievous, but stunningly brilliant too! damn observant, can picture every single details easily. okie fine, maybe this is my personal favorite towards a detective character as i love detective stories. but Robert done his job well too! he portrayed Sherlock Holmes successfully, i think.

there's some scene which i couldn't remember that just remind me of Pirates of the Carribean. i think it must be the fighting on the port scene, and the bridge where the Lord Blackwood died. couldn't remember, but i suddenly see Jack Sparrow in Sherlock Holmes. how funny eh?

though sometimes i cnt really get their English accent, as it was too slangty, but their lines were humorous. funny la! u gotta watch it, or else u wun get what i said.

two things i really like about this movie. one, the sound effect. it was really interesting how they can insert some funky and old school musics at some scene that looks totally unrelated, and surprising how the songs matches the scene. the songs match! wow, i kinda salute the director or who-so-ever that in charge of that now. creative.

and i like the slow motion during some fighting scene. at least, we can see the movement clearly without pondering where and which part the person hit.

overall, i rate it 8 over 10


there's something, that beyond your control.
- Sherlock Holmes -

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

just read la

i think boredom just motivated me to blog a lot recently. precisely, today. this is already my third post.

so just now i went for yumcha session with my friends. some friends purposely drove down to jenjarom and met us. so initially yong and i quite reluctant. we both spent a lot lately. but due to a word called "YI QI", we went lo.

it was okie. talked crap with e jin. he said i din change lot since the last time he saw me. as in, my attitude. he thought with a relationship i would be more feminine. then i told him, i used to be. but now no more, so too bad so sad lo. hahaha...then he invited me to his Taylors lakeside campus. he said many rich fish, and the place look damn chunt. okie okie, i shall go when i have someone to fetch me there.

then after that, another friend joined us, and said next year end wanna bring us to Taiwan. argghhh im tempted by the way he said lo. cheap clothes. many food. awesome club. damn it! i shall work more from now. coz maybe im going sabah next year too. hopefully i have enough money to go both of these places. and there's a conference to attend in Taiwan too. we gotta represent DongChan, something like that. he's tempting me. and i should need at least 3k to go there! ahhhhhh~

what a great night. im going out again tomorrow night. my mom is definitely killing me soon.


ps: im listening to "still as ever" from the Korean drama! so coincidence!

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

it's SNOWING!

well, not literally. but it's snowing in my kitchen!

before that, HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA! we love you!

and fyi, today is "dong zhi", the chinese festival that we eat glutinous rice balls. ouch, the name is too long, i shall call it "tangyuan".

so since mom and dad were busy with their own stuff, sister is in the camp. so bro and i decided to cook it ourselves. we got the dough from grandma, and we forgot to get the colorings. sigh...its all plain white.


so, first step, we roll the dough into balls. it's quite sticky if u dun put some oil on ur palm.

he's busy busy busy.



and...






TADDA!
DONE! don't u think it looks like snowflakes? and the flour made it look like it has just snowed in our kitchen! ps: the dog is actually the tissue box.

AWESOME EH? MUAHAHAHAHA...ps: there's a "shit" like tongyuan on top of the plate. can u see that?


next, boil the water and prepare syrup. since mom is too lazy to prepare the soup for us, we just pluck some pandan leaves in front of my house and throw it in. yes, i have pandan leaves in front of my house. we planted it okie?


and it will look like this after u boil the soup and throw in the tongyuan.

they will bloat and float on top of it. awww, don u think it looks so appetizing?

in 3 bowls. initially there's four. bro accidentally broke one, wasted the tangyuan, luckily nothing happen to him. he's kinda traumatized after that. hahahaha...


indulging in the tongyuan! well, it's actually tasteless, we added lotsa peanut sugar. however, we made it, so it tastes good! *thumbs up* *slurps*

i have spent some quality time with him today. funny la my bro, came to my room last night because blackout. awww, so sweet. and yeah, this picture we DO look alike. and im in my default pose again. soree la, it's like instinct. cnt control.


moral of the story: i had a productive day.

and i shall take a nap now. i couldn't be too productive. so not me.

R.I.P Milo

20th dec 2009, was such a tragic day to my family. especially to my mom.


it was early in the morning. my mom brought Milo out to pee like every other mornings.

when he was done, my mom called him in from the house. it was a very short distance from the place where he was. but, he never come back.

when he was running into the house, (fyi Milo looks very funny when he run) a car bang into him, and Milo was torn into pieces of flesh and blood immediately, in front of my mom's eyes.

i dono who is the fucking stupid bastard that drove so fast early in the morning, and he/she was so blind that cnt even see a small puppy crossing road.

my mom called me after that, and cried on the phone. i was on my way to work. my tears came down unconsciously.

Milo. 2months of life, yet he had so much fun and caring from my family, especially my parents. he's like another son to my parents. he was so adorable and energetic. very hyper. he couldn't sit still, he would always wana run around, licking everyone's legs.




he's intelligent. he could recognize his name already. he could recognize me too, even im only going back home once a week.


how could we don love him?

Milo. rest in peace. u will always be remembered. u will always on our mind. we miss you.


ps: Chiausim said our house has a curse, that cnt keep the dogs. sobb...

Friday, December 18, 2009

holiday day 1

holiday day 1.

what i did?

sleep.

sleep.

sleep.

eat.

did house chores.

watch drama.

watch drama.

watch drama.

watch drama.

watch drama.

watch drama.

watch drama.

okie i think enough of spamming. today is indeed a productive day.hmm, at least i think so.
i have finally done with my "Beyond the realm of conscience" drama. which i had been waiting for watching it before finals. im so HAPPY! the drama was quite okie. sometimes a bit draggy. talked too much. i don't really like the ending, it was like hanging in the air, it's neither happily ever after, nor tragic ending. weird.

my mom's friend bought me book today! she inspired me alot. she changed me, from a rebellious teen, to who i am today, by buying me books. im touched! awww...made my day!

someone tagged an old photo of mine in facebook. we went a camp, and criticized the camp committee badly. hah, we were so arrogant right. now i felt silly. why should i bother to do that at that time? childish is the only word i could think of. i look so different now. haha.

can u spot me? i looked MUCH younger that time. and thin. aishhh...

im working tomorrow. but im not sure which outlet im supposed to go. is that bad?

i miss my friends already.

btw, i didn't go clubbing last night. sigh, what a waste. long story. not to mention. im so pathetic. sigh.


but i bought a super SEXAY dress in times square. err, it is actually mixture of lovely and sexay. i like it! i shall wear this some day.


im changing my image next semester. stay tuned.

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

FREE BO~

first and foremost, i would like to express my gratitude to 3 of my lecturers that didn't prepare finals exam for me. this semester, i have only 2 finals paper, which is on the same day, today. so, er herm...IM FREEE NOW!!!!!!

no more exams la la la...

just now was an awesome night. talked rubbish, did silly things. drooling for Mr Hong's muscular arms. yum yumm..

no need to stress for studies that are not completed.

i had snowflake just now! whee, i found back the joy enjoying Snowflake again! woo nice.. thanks to Alice, Wern Sern and Leonard for the free snowflake. argh, Alice u know why. hahahaha..

today is my last day of gym, well at least for this year. im so gonna miss my gym mates. i could only see them next year! hmmm actually next year sound very long, but to be precise, i will meet them in 3 weeks time!

my obsession towards "Wedding Dress" is still going on and strong. i am indeed "poisoned" by this bloody song. this song stuck in my head all the time. when i studie, the song came in to intervene with my Cognition and Sociology. before i go to sleep and try to refresh my memory on the information, the song came in again. same goes to when im cooking breakfast, taking shower, sitting for final papers, and NOW. argghhh im so in love with this song!!!!

wooo~ randomnya. im so damnn carefree. jess soree la, too bad so sad u haven't completed ur finals. HOHOHO~

im anticipating for my plans tomorrow. going Times Square with yong. argh, so happy! and at night, alice will bring me somewhere for euphoria. she said i can go fishing, to see whether i can capture a big fat fish. then Yancy suggested me to bring more worms. she said more worms, more fish u can catch, and bigger fish is possible. hahahaha, im not that desperate yet. im not VICTOR. he's SAD. Single And Desperate

and ya, i show u this logo of mine for my design class. i didn't summit it because i think my lecturer will not appreciate my extreme creativeness. we are supposed to draw a logo based on our initials. like mine, T, Y, R! it's like super hard.


nah this is my logo. i name it stupid bird. can u spot T, Y, R?





ps: i had a COLORFUL day today. with sushi, train and other craps.

pps: i lose another 1kg. preparation for final is awesome!

Sunday, December 13, 2009

pissed off

im very pissed off now

stupid sucky bloody college just call me, and charge me extra RM348.09. i have no idea why do they charge me. electricity and water bill? it won't have exceed that much okie? it is shared among 7 people in the fuking unit.

im starting to hate my initials now. T, Y, R. screw that lecturer man! what does he want? wtf! ur logo must look abstract. you must be able to see ur logo. screww u man!!!!!!

after one whole week of peaceful days, im starting to hate to be single. when im so emotional strained nobody could comfort me. im annoyed by this bloody annoying feeling. i should have go out there and shout, hey i want a man, to comfort me! don mind being very cheap, i just want accompany. WTF.

cognition doesn't seem to get in my head.

sociology is even worse. i hate to studie that man. what politic family religion. screww them!!!!!





okie im done. ignore me.

wedding dress

im in love with this song recently.

read the subtitles. and it's time to move on. this is dedicated to u, my friend.i think you know im talking about u.

Friday, December 11, 2009

Broca's aphasia

Broca's aphasia. is defined as a language disorder attributed to damage in the frontal lobe of the brain.

it was discovered by and named after a French surgeon who noticed that some patients spoke in halting, ungrammatical speech following a stroke or accident (Broca, 1865)

these patients were typically limited to expressing themselves by stringing together simple words.

for example,

yes ... ah ... Monday err ...Dad and Peter ...I errr... tell you .... ahh ... you ....very ... hahaha...aiyo .... you hor ... very bad ... don't want... la ...


does it sound familiar to you? because, u and i, we SPEAK like this!

i realize that most of the Malaysian have minor symptoms of Broca's aphasia.

we were too used to ahh, err and lotsa pauses in our conversation. so when i came across this in my cognition text book, i felt that this is so funny, and decided to share!

well, im too bored of studying actually. im finding my way out. arrgghhhh...


and by the way, last night was a very funny night.

we were supposed to go yamcha at night. so i fetched one of my friends on my motorbike, while yong fetched ping with her motorbike. kent and others are waiting for us at the place.

so usually i ride very fast wan. while i was chatting with my friend, i drove by the place. i stopped at the mamak stall at the right corner of the shop lot. then both of us kept waiting. where are the rest ar? then we encountered some of other friends, some acquintance. and i was wondering, where's yong and ah kent they all?

we both were standing in front of the mamak stall, and looking for them. then i said, "isn't this the place? i couldn't be mistaken gua..."

then the other customer said:" mei mei ar, the place u mentioned is at the other end of this shop lot. not here la."

OMG it was damn embarrasing lo. then we quickly drove to the place, while yong they all were laughing and waiting for us. isshhh... i declare that im not from Jenjarom k? i don't know the place. i very innocent that i don't even go out yamcha at night. isshhh...

oh ya, yong told me something that is quite hilarious too. she said last Sunday, her sister went to play basketball with her friends. when she came back, she looked so surprised and yelled at her

"er jie, do u know that ying rou broke up with her bf d?"

then i was wondering. i barely talk to her sister wor. i could just recognize her and greet her when i met her. so yong asked her, stunningly.

"how u know?"

"neh, my friend is her cousin's friend's friends ma. her cousin saw in facebook. then she told her friends. her friends told her another friends. and then pass to me. so i know lo..."


wow. the power of facebook! i should really not underestimate it next time. the news spread from subang to jenjarom. and then she said

"er jie, actually a lot of people know about this d. she's XXX' s daughter ma. so u tell her, don't be sad la. she so pretty and young."

well, she left me speechless.

and then, yong's mother chimed into the conversation. she met both of us few times before.

"ah yong ar, u go tell ying rou la. she so beautiful. im so sure she can find a better wan. don't be so upset. ...."


all of us couldn't stop laughing after she told me. i officially prove my theory that, people in Jenjarom are too free to bother about their own stuffs, and they are extremely sensitive to gossips that are not even in their area. thumbs up!


okie, time's up. i shall go take a nap, and continue studying. Qun coming back tonight. hope we can go out again! yayyy!

Thursday, December 10, 2009

the wonder 2!

i have this horrible experience this morning.

early in the morning, after helping Alice out for model shooting in Casa, i went to 25th floor to look for Letty. i woke her up and took something from her, and wanted to go college. i went into the lift, pressed P1, and some unexpected incident happened.

the lift moved down slowly till 20th floor. then it halted suddenly, and the lights turned off awhile. the lights on the button went off too. i was alone in the lift.

i knew definitely nobody can hear me if i scream. so i didn't do so. i didn't cry too, which im kinda amazed by myself. anyway, so i kept pressing the alarm button. everytime when im in the lift i always wonder when can i press the alarm button, and finally i have a chance! woww, dream fulfilled!

so right, i kept pressing, nobody came to help. i looked at my watch anxiously. it was already 2mins, but i felt like it has been a century. i kept praying, and maybe my prayers work. the door opened slightly finally. i quickly jumped out from the lift. and i guess the management people knew nothing about it. it was the longest two minutes i have in my life. damn it! it was so scary!


how if i fell down from 20th floor, straight away crashed by the lift, and die in a disgusting way?


how if i trapped in the lift for too long and i suffocate inside it?


would anyone care about it?


would anyone know about it?


it was the scariest thing i had. but for some reasons, i feel nothing. i think im kinda numb to things happened around me lately.

by the way, the number 2 brings me some fortune too!

after few days of skipping dinner, i felt that i lose some weight, which i had attempted for long time and it didn't work out. then last night when i go gym, i weight and realized that i lose 2KG! wow, 2kg in 5days! what an accomplishment! jess, don't roll ur eyes. i eat okie? just i don't eat much!

alice said my face looks sharper in the picture this morning. and i like it! yayyy! will try to buy more summer dress as i realize that i look good in it.


without any photoshop lo. sweet right? hahaha...


and i have a haircut this afternoon. spent me RM20. not bad lo...but i wish my hair can grow longer. my hair now is like medium short length. aikss, please grow longer! i wan some nice curls for my hair next year chinese new year. Yong has really long hair, and she looks good in it! come on hair, grow la longer...im so envy of her man.


okie enough for blogging. i should really concentrate in my cognition and stop mourning for my loss. tata...


i don't expect anything from you anymore.
no worries for giving me false hope.
i know. i understand. and i already accepted the fact.
i just hope that...
we are still friends.
not some strangers.
your ignorance make things worse.

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

hectic

just finish 4 days hosting the UIU delegates. im exhausted now.

saturday was the installation + alumni. i am...err finally the new members of Fayette House now. im in a mixed feeling that day. not too excited to get onboard, neither too depressed. helping to take pictures in alumni. Americans are friendly. well, a bit too much. they would keep talking to you and laughed at very small matter. wow, easy to please.


after installation.

i look kinda pale, and damn it! i have big eye bags! they are even bigger than my eyes! shoot!

sunday was the graduation. somehow the day was quite memorable. i couldn't stop thinking how would i look like in the robe when im graduating. i wanted to be in the summa cum laude list! i guess this indicates that i need to work very very hard for it, but not spending some nonsense time blogging here.

anyway, proceed. that day, to be frank. it was messed up. guess the PIC this year didn't plan properly ahead. certs are not done. the whole function delayed for 1 hour. registration counter was as messy as if it was refugee counter. many of them put the blame on Fayette House though it was not held by us. we were just helping. but the good thing is, we managed to have a free buffet lunch with the UIU delegates. i love the scenary up there! i could see Pavillion. man, never know that Pavillion looks so nice from that angle. not a big fan of architecture building, but thumbs up for the designer! the food looks appealing but err...it was just so-so.

monday, was the launching of international business. if the graduation was a mess, this was even worse. sorry if i have offended anyone.

as the event went on, all the problems pop out. nobody was beside the PA system all the time. common sense, our sucky college always have not-so-good PA system, after lotsa experiences of organizing events in college. mic was either too loud or too soft. no one was taking care of the lights. when should the light be turned on or off for slideshow presentation. performance kinda screw up, no CD after emcee introduced them. awkward silence was there throughout the event. the flow was quite jumpy. public speaking play kinda weird. no props, less music, don't understand the story. Dr. Steven is still the best lecturer for public speaking. the launching ceremony didn't go well as it should be.

however, big thumbs up given to communication club! great job for the "create change through culture" intercultural performance. the flow was good. great planning. lucille was still very excellent in doing all these things. i enjoyed the show. u people know why. "NOBODY" dance! muahahahahaha...

then finally today, err, i mean, just now. we had a dinner with the UIU delegates. and it would be the last day of our hosting. they are proceeding to KD and other SEGi campus soon. they bought us domino pizza! and we had lotsa fun! Mr Frazier said i looked like 12 years old girl in US. OMG im so flattered!


another note, i found my hidden talent. im so damn good in PR-ing! i could fake the smile throughout the whole event even i was scolded by some rude people. wow, i should have realized this long time ago!

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Reborn

love, double of joy, accompanied by double of pain.


i think it's time for me to start a new life. to move on. yes i should do so. but why, the emptiness. the memory.


ponder over these 8months, i could only remember all those good days. yes we do have fight. yes we do have cold war. but, we managed to go through it. and i could only think of the nice things that we had gone through.


when the sparks isn't there, i declare the death or, termination of this relationship.


yes i still love you. don't feel burden. i won't do anything else. im not a stalker either.


i miss the pasar malam
i miss the restaurants that u have brought me to
i miss the movies we watched
i miss the 8months of days.


unfortunately, im not being a very good gf, and let the sparks die off just like that.


maybe, now this is way better. i guess the feeling will fade away eventually.


i am strong.

Thursday, December 3, 2009

JESS LIM!

thank you lim yu hui! im feeling much better now. good friend. great friend. *clap clap*


i have a crave for doughnuts just now. but i guess it will be gone tomorrow. save money. Looweekong, i want Krispy Kreme!


the song "hotel room service" keeps playing in my itunes. because i clicked the replay button. haha. im so addicted to this song lately, dono why.

"Forget about your boyfriend, and meet me at the hotel room. you can bring your girlfriend, and meet me at the hotel room,"

im random yes i know.


OMG i feel like drinking alcohol now. like the feeling when i clear my mind, and getting very alert. now i know why people love alcohol. guess im an alcoholic either. maybe Saturday we will have a girl night, Jess, Chiausim and i. some alcohol will be damn good. hope the next day i won't have hang over.


initially there will be a lot of vulgar words in this post, but i hold it down. quite dangerous. blog is not very private.

nadah, supposingly i need to do my assignment. like duh, due to some unexpected circumstances, my condition now is not suitable to do it. aish. jess u noe why.


damn, im worried about my result this semester man. im so so...distracted. and Fayette House. soree Staci, im afraid that i will become the next Haritha or Melissa. please remind me when im behaving like that k?


btw, i dreamed about my dad passed away again. i realize this kind of dream is quite frequent when im stress. please go away these nightmares. i love my daddy, mommy and my family. don't let me dream about this again k? i don't wan wake up with tears


nevermind, nevermind X 100
- the very good gf -

Misconception

okie la, the title is abit down. but hey update first! i have done with my 2 presentations today. i was abit nervous, but i think overall it was okie. at least not that terrible lo. so YAYYYY! im excused from studying cognition tonight.

alright. misconception. it's a bit depressing i suggest you don't read it if you don't wana ruin you beautiful day.

sometimes, different people can have different misconception. i mean, yeah everyone has their own thoughts on how something looks like. but IMHO, keep all those to yourselves la. there are some particular somebody, could just spread whatever thoughts they think are right to the others, as if they are some religious priest.

embracing people that you loved by your misconception is defintely a mistake.

if you love them, accept them for who they are, and love them as usual. not to convert them into something that you think it's right.

dear whoever out there, please bear in mind that, everybody in this world has their right to choose to live on their lives. you have no right to intervene in their choices made. they had chosen. they have to be responsible. so, what's the big deal?

misconception itself is a monster. it portrays how fragile a person could be, and how self-centered the person can be. it also reveals how conservative you are, and that is truly saddening.

you will never get to learn new things
you are not moving together with the world
you are trapped in your peaceful little world
you have no idea how hurt it is
you will defintely lose some faith from the person.


hello. controlling is not a proper way to express your love.



i could not help to change misconception of some people, but i could not help to see my friend losing her usual charming grins on her face either.


finger crossed. take care my friend.




I miss you so much all of a sudden. Snowflake doesn't taste that nice without you. I hate you, But i Love you. there's only one person on this earth can make me cry my eyes out, and make me grin from ear to ear instantly. that's. YOU.



we have no choice.
- anonymous -

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

stress

dear anyone, please drown me under the sea. i wana avoid all these craps.

damn, I'm feeling stress now.

2 presentations to go tomorrow.
2 finals coming.
notes for cognition haven started.
photography assignments don't seem up to my expectations.
design assignments. shit, worse. i have a feeling to redo everything. the logo, the sketches, the illustrators.

isshhh, coke is giving me ecstasy. very hyper, not in a good way though. body is hot. head is heavy. hope this is not a sign of sick again. i have already had enough. oh no, not that cramp! i don't wana have gastric again! hands trembling. head dizzy. Im crazy.

i hope i can sleep forever and ever. then i don't have to think of all the things that i have not done. and the stupid perfectionism in mine will not remind me of my flaws on the things that i have done.

oh my, this sem is just so great. shatter my illusion all the while. im not that great that i thought. sigh...



maybe...i should get some sleep and stop mumbling now.




wish me luck to survive for the semester. and finger crossed for A's please. really cannot afford to get a B now. sucky scholarship.