i couldn't take it!

yeah, i couldn't take it, it's already a fact that can't be changed. but i just couldn't take it, as in dun wana accept it. keep distracted from my studies bcoz of her.

curious of what i mentioned? well, it's actually not my story. my friend and her boyfriend broke up. dun do that kind of face, i know it is non of my business, but i just couldn't take it. i know for couples breaking up is kinda normal, and really quite common. but my response towards this friend is different. they had been hang up for 3 years plus. started from form 3 till this year. and i am the one who observe them from nothing till calling each other husband and wife, very lovey dovey. the memory was still fresh. i can still remember when we had just finished our PMR, we gonna have a performance. so while preparing for the performance, i realized that both of them like to stay away from others are they couple?lotsa people ask the question. so i confronted her and asked, she smiled and blushed when i mentioned him. she then revealed that they had hang out together, but not officially yet. okie, my friends and i decided to give her a hand, we wanted her to have a HEALTHY relationship with an official beginning. that day after our practice, we sat in a circle and began to play true an dare. i think it's fate, it was the guy's turn to have dare. we wanted him to express his LOVE to her in front of everyone. my friend blushed again and kept looking at the floor. i guessed she was very shy. the climax was the guy shouted loudly :" XXX, can u be my girlfriend?i like you very much and i wana protect u!" in front of us. if im nt mistaken, there was about 12 people witnessed his proposition. she smiled again and answered:"my answer ar...haha...of course Y-E-S la...haha" then she burst into tears. a little dramatic beginning. haha, but serious, i can still recognize the breeze on that day, whereby we saw them holding hands and walked away. we hope they can get together and happy forever. we really do.

they put lotsa effort in maintaining their relationship. we are the counselor and advisor for her. she shared her first kiss, first trip and many first experience that she had gone through with him our gang is her most supportive source especially when she feel like giving up. her father rejected her boyfriend and wana separate the love birds. as a solution, the guy moved to school near by our school(he can't transfer to our school coz we are all girls' school) so that he can go tuition center with her every week without her father's knowledge. and to make the story more dramatic, the guy accompanied her for tuition class even he's not taking the subject! my friend was a smart student that score well in her exam. the guy was influenced by her and began to study. he mentioned that, all this are for the sake of their future. wow...can u imagine how we feel when he said so? he was really a responsible guy and take care of my friend as she is the princess or anything! he can withstand all her childish acts and try to negotiate with her when she merajuk with PATIENT!!they were the best couple that i had ever met coz they dun really argue with each other. they understand each other well! we were so envy and made a deal among us that we wana find a boyfriend who can sacrifice for us like what her boyfriend did.

she entered college at the beginning of this year. that time her family finally accepted her boyfriend after 2 years. in the college, she's quite good looking that attracted lotsa guys in that college. they had their first quarrel bcoz she was quite close with another guy. he jealous over this guy bcoz he was better than her boyfriend in lotsa things, like physical appearance, wealth, n studies. i asked her, had u ever considered of giving up the relationship bcoz of the new guy? she admit that she was confused as she wana have better choice. but at the end, nothing happened. they still managed to get together. last time i saw both of them was in the end of august. we ate steamboat together, and both of them were still lovey dovey.

just now, when i checked through her friendster profile, i sensed something wrong. her shoutout mentioned about that she had cried over for the relationship and it's time to let go. i stunned for few seconds and noticed that she had changed her status from "in a relationship" to "single". after that, i found that he was removed from her featured friend list. BROKEN UP?1st thing pop into my mind. but i still couldn't take it. really, i need some time to think about it. memories flied through my mind and reminded me that something had changed, will never go back. what can i do? i really feel very despair. not only sad, more to despair...i could remember, the day that he shouted "can u be my girlfriend?" and she agreed with blushed face. i will always remember....

i just....cnt take it...for now...