where are you now?

listening to song "Where are you now", recommended by Chiausim, i realize that im getting nostalgia lately.

just now, chatting with a long lost friend in facebook. (facebook is really a bond that link everyone together! coolll!). i thought of the lyrics in the song.

To my ex-best friends don't know how we grew apart
To my favorite band and sing along in my car
To the face I see in my memories
Where are you now

yeah, she was my very close friend back in high school. i mean, form 1 and form 2 especially. these are the years that i considered it the most unfortunate years. have u been rejected by all the friends and everyone turn their back at you? have u been criticized terribly at the back without u knowing by the friends that u always hang around with?

i have.

and i guess we were all immature. that is why, when we look back now, we felt we were silly for gripping something small, and hence turn to some unnecessary backstabbing. hah, girls.

so, those two years, i always want to forget it. and unconsciously, i filter out all the friends and memory i had. which is a stupid idea, because i drift apart with my best friends during that two years. especially in form 3 after i moved to the other class, the bond between us getting weaker, but i, on the other hand, gaining all the friendship and attention i want. the new friends. and shameful to say, i even feel agitated easily, when i hang out with my old buddies that time.

we were so close last time. we even went to each other house and overnight. which i cnt remember that she actually came to my house before. opps, soreee. but her house was big and comfy! it was many years back then.

eventually, she had her own gang, i had mine. we are friends, but we didn't contact with each other since we graduated.



ahhh...time flies. things changed.

we found each other, and we connecting back again!

there's one thing she said that made me feel like crying, just now in facebook chatting.

"good. the ying rou that i know had not changed a bit. just physically."

hey babe, if u r reading this, i would like to let u know that regardless of what happened in the years that we drifted apart, i feel grateful that i had known u, especially in the years that i have no one to talk to. u r a great listener, a wise friend. we could always fight with each other (yes literally, haha), and got back together in the next minute. thank you for the love and caring u had given me. though sometimes i will complain ur temper, but im not better than u either.

thanks for knowing u my friend. i would feel very proud to have my first forensic scientist (damn cool kan?) friend babe! haha, all the best for pursuing ur dreams. and keep in touch.


by the way, im really worried about my freshie party tomorrow. argh.