empty

i feel odd recently. oh well, actually this feeling starts to strike me this morning. i was err...not to say depressed, nor euphoria. i was just, empty. dead. don feel like doing anything.

lack of motivation i suppose.
have been worked so hard
have been pushed myself towards the last tip of my energy.
but why?

this feeling, is....ODD i would say.

very weird.

like nothing can keep me excited. i mean, really excited.

im not trying to be emo or something. just that, i don feel like talking, even lose appetite towards food that i used to like. lose the enthusiastic in doing things that i used to enjoy.

why???

the emptiness occupied myself, and i cannot get rid of it!


if u ask me, what do u want actually?
all of a sudden, i become so unsure about what i want, what i was after, what i need.
my passion towards a lot of things fade away, i err...to be honest, i dono what happen to me.


i would like to stress, im not emo. not stress. stress isn't like this

i guess im just...losing some part of myself.

how i wish my brother is here to cheer me up.

HARRY POTTER!

yeah people, i went to watch HP6 with my bunch of friends today, right after our class. the movie was good, impressed me! let see as follows.

1. the sound effects were awesome! beginning there was this heart beating sound, create the suspense. then when Harry they all were having fun, the music at the back change to something comparatively more cheerful! fighting scene at the end was the climax!
   
2. young actors/actress were good! can see some improvement. especially Ron. can really see the changes of his facial expression when he was normal, poisoned and love-poisoned. haha, the face changed immediately after he drank the poison. the eyes, the nose. everything!
   
3. minor characters play important role too! Lavender Brown was so "hua chi" that i feel like slapping her in the face. Bellatrix was really good! she managed to portray the characteristic like what JK Rowling wrote in the book. loyal, sarcastic and also scary in a sense. like someone who escaped from mental hospital. urgh. play her role well enough i suppose
4. transition of scenes were great! when Dumbledore dead, Harry went after Snape, and they had a fight. there, transition from close up shot to long shot was perfect! the action can be seen clearer. and a lot more of scenes like this, impressed me!

however, there are still some snapsticks in the movie. some unneccessary/ random/ doesn't make sense scenes. like Ginny and the shoelaces, set the house on fire, random lady at the railway station and all. i dono what's the message behind these scenes, maybe they just wanted to emphasize on the following scenes? or make it more dramatic than it could be seen? i dono...

the movie is still worth to be watched, an undeniable truth. like what ivan said, the direction was good. even they cut down most of the stories in the book to make it more condense, i was still impressed.

feel like watching again. i like HP, but not those really big fan like chiausim or cheewei. (oh both start with C!) cheewei even learn the spells and all. they were so clear about the plot of the story! oh well, not me, i read once i forgot most of it! hahaha

yet, GO WATCH HP6! chuntttt~

cant wait for HP7 to come now

TADDAA~

i changed my layout again! since every shopping complex having season sales to clear the old stock, i will do the same to my blog too! nah, what i mean is, renovate the whole blog, everything is new now!!!! lalala...

hope it's not so complicated. enjoy! have fun!

Let's Have some fun, this beat is sick.
i wanna take a ride on your disco stick
- Love game -

PROM is over.

wow, my friend updated their blogs way faster than me. all regarding the prom, which was held on Friday, 10th July 2009 in Berjaya Times Square Hotel, Manhattan Ballroom II. i was the program coordinator (so call la), ran here and there with my 3inch HEELS!!!! URRRGGGHHHH do u know how torturing it is? MY GOD! those effects just attack me since last night till now. my whole body and legs pain like hell. i swear, next time, i shall wear the heels just for modelling and posing only, not running around like some auntie! issshhhh...

anyway, the PROM was a blast! it was quite successful and reach all my expectations! performances ran well. emcee (cyn im talking about u) found her humor sense after fidgetting in the beginning. the room looked elegance with the blue lights. (THANKS JOSHUA!) the receptionists and usherers looked great! (NICK, wow especially! wore contact lens wor, looked different!). the PA guy who collaborated with us congratted me after the whole thins. i guess event like this must be common for them huh?

really, i miss those days. i realize this is the common feeling after i organized every grand events and camps. i was easily irritated and stressed up throughout the preparations of prom. dealing with people, internal conflicts, losing my own happy self and all. even on the day itself, everything happened impromptu, changed agenda at the eleventh hour. almost broke down, but managed to prevent it happen. thanks to Lett, she always provided me support in many ways. also, thanks to him that night. i felt calm in his presence. everything fall into place. i was relieved. really. my prays worked out. the feedback was quite acceptable, before the MOS incident i would say haha.

i apologize for my bad temper during the prom. well, i will not get myself excused for that. because i know my temper. aiks, will work hard in managing my emotions. im so emotional my god! grrrr...

thanks to Jess, who lend chiausim and i a room before the night. and im soree i bullied ur patrick. hahaa, but i promise i wun do that again, u got the voice recorded from me right? if i managed to delete that clip, i cnt keep my promise again.

thanks to chiausim, whom worked together with me to overcome the strong JS syndrome on the night! yayyy! now we really need to think how to solve all these JS people.

thanks to all committee member especially most of the Fayette house members. we got close in the preparation. i still remembered the first time when we surveyed the hotel, Horng was like very quiet and looked stern. afraid of him that time. now? cheh, HI PRINCESS HORNG!
hahahah...

nah, enjoy the pictures, i took a few only. no time to eat, where got time to camwhore wor? sigh...

next time, as if there is a next time, i will choose to sit down and relax, without involving in anything. enjoy the time with my friends. hey, did i mention that i didn't get to sit down and eat a lot even i paid the ticket? grrrrr...UNFAIR UNFAIR UNFAIR! THE FOOD LOOKED SO APPETIZING YET I ATE ONLY A BIT!!!!!!!!!!jierrrrrrr....

and yeah, i really hate make up! it took me so many time to put it on, and also ages to remove it! URGHHHH!!!

alright, before make up.

chiausim put on her make up d that time, see my swollen eyes and big eyes bags?
our favorite washroom!

and now, after make up. be ready, Jess said i looked like those "lala-mui" in sg wang. sobbbb...
i will not do this often. ishhh...

jess wana look cool but i ignore her haha

Yion and her darling, me and mine! whee~
chiausim.
cally
rachel!

Kristy! dun worry, u look cute in this! hahaha..
can u see Lett? DEEP V DRESS lea, waaahh~~~a lot people not here, waiting for the complete pictures to come!

despite all the conflicts we have, i shall give an A for those memories. even i really pissed off and fed up, WE MADE IT HAPPEN!

gosh, now i feel really empty after all my hectic schedule. aikssss, shall do something that i should responsible for. like how to become a understanding girlfriend? hmmm learning learning...

hey JoJo, this is joe.
i behald of Dischord would like to say
Thanks for having us tonight
and i hope we managed to entertain the "promers" as how u expected.
we din get to see u becos we hav to rush to the next event.
right after the prize giving and we got there just on time.
Have a good night.
- message from the winner of audition that night-

awwwwww....im so touched!!!!!

relieve!

heyya, im in a very good mood today! lala, coz most of the preparation jobs for prom had done! and what left now is only decoration and the night itself. plus, im waiting for letty and cally to send me information for my bio report. apparently i got nothing to do now! wowwww~ AWESOME!

stats report and presentation? aiya next week only do la...

bio report? still pending, letty and cally supposed to find the information ma

prom performance? i cancel one of my performance d, so i wouldn't have to spend time to practice for the dance. so im involved in only one performance, which is only 1min plus. HOORAY!

basically the performances are secure. emcee im not so worried because of Joy. she's experienced and i believe she can guide Robin and Cynthia well!

nothing left now. i should feel happy. but a bit empty inside. why? because out of a sudden, DANG! everything is done. i got nothing to do anymore. its a good thing actually. i can sleep more and fangkong more! yayyyy!!!

another special thanks to him. whom had accompanied me throughout my stressful days. had been a hard time for him i guess? soree dear, it's gonna over now! thanks lots and miss ya!

PEOPLE LET'S BREAK A LEG!!!! WOOO HOOOOO

PROM COMING PROM COMING PROM COMING PROM COMING!

addicted!

im addicted to this song! keep playing in my head since Monday! waaaahhhh love this song! start to fall in love in Keri Hilson's voice! her voice is so special that caught my attention! listen to this!!!!

Keri Hilson ft. Ne-Yo and Kanye West - Knock You Down

btw notice the lyrics too! quite meaningful...


finally get back to home. i become the sloth again. lazy to anything! aiksss im so lazy...Mom's getting emotional, argued with dad, refused to talk to each other for the whole damn week. sigh...i dun have the energy to care about this anymore. just let me take a break from my busy week. gotta start my work later.

all the best for my prom. i really really really honestly, very worried about it.

mid term over!

yo peeps! mid term is OVER! OVER OVER OVER! walalalalalalala...i dun like exams, i hate studying for exams, i hate burning midnight oils just to cover a few chapters! issshhhh...BUT anyway, exam is over!!!!!

prom is coming, like really close. next friday. i gained weight d, dono whether still can fit the dress i bought last time? kinda worry actually. facing some crisis in handling performances. realize that maybe im not that capable in organizing event like what i think i am? well, im having difficulties to deal with my emotional instability recently. having roller coaster of emotions. sigh...poor thing. people around me havta endure my weird temper. soree people, will try to control it. do understand me please.

i really need to prioritize my job now. im treating my studies in this sem sambil lewa, meaning? do all my studies without my best. i slept in most of the classes. all my energy and time contributed to prom, and other stuffs. STUDIES! shouldn't studies and result are my first priority? this prom has turned me upside down. im no longer the same person. stupid prom. hate it hate it hate it!

i miss home. i miss dad. i miss dad home-cooked dishes. i miss mom. i miss the moment i complain evything happened to her. i miss my stupid sister. i miss all her dumbness. i miss my brother. i miss his stubbornness! argghhhhh i miss home! really miss home. i wana go home. really homesick now. JENJAROM JENJAROM JENJAROM JENJAROM JENJAROM! why are u so far away? far far away!

visit to his house really made the homesick feeling getting stronger. watched their family casual talks reminds me of my family too. i really miss them lots. bits and bits, engulfing me. the feeling of loneliness without family. OMG im such a family girl!

all the best for my coming grand event. have been talking crap all the while. guess i was depressed for my BIO result. sigh...should really study harder and harder. i have no one to blame but myself.

I...adore you
- Transformer II -