GOTCHA!

finally i got my results. well, better than my dream of coz. see, i told u, u havta tell ur bad dreams or else it will come true. while for good dreams, it works vice versa. haha anyway, got my result, RELIEVED! like the result keep delaying since wednesday. so unproductive. tsk tsk.

got 2 As and 1 B. argh. mad at the damn B. and lousy system calculated my CGPA wrongly. so much lower. i shall go and argue with them next week. but...i forgot where did i put my previous result slips. very good. hmmmmphhh...

by the way, watch these short films. had u heard if the 15 Malaysia? yeah, among all those videos which had been released, this 2 were my favorite. but...i like "potong saga" too. nvm u guys watch on ur own la.


House

it's kinda sad. after u watched u might feel:"what a coincidence?" but yeah, it is true. it does happen in lower class, kinda...pathetic i would say.

Halal

HILARIOUS! incredibly sarcastic. as for me, i feel the sarcasm. and what is the lady with BKT sash? i miss BKT too. oh ya, and BKF as well...

UP

yeah yeah all the way UP! watched this movie this afternoon, since i have nothing to do. well, thanks to our college excellent scheduling and the greatest lecturer i had ever been. one of the lecturers wasn't around, the other class is not available. since the subject is not offered at the eleventh hour, great. what a productive start for my new semester.

anyway, back to the topic. UP is indeed the Pixar's best movie, besides Toy stories. it's more interesting than Wall E, because it has more conversation in it, and it's like so funny.



there's this old man, Carl and the little boy, Russel. the stories revolved around them. in the beginning the wife of this old man passed away, and it's...touched. i dono, the love between them is so strong and...affectionate. it was just...death, but with all the love and dreams they had together.

anyway, the following adventure is fun! like okie it's a bit not logic la, like the high air pressure and all, but it somehow makes sense. better than Transformer 2 actually. and a giant bird (giant birds! i hate birds!) and a cute talking dog. i guess it's a Golden Retriver. it's so so so adorable! WAAAHHHH i wish i can have this dog in the future. usually i prefer cats than dogs u know, but exceptional for Golden Retriver!

look! CUTE isn't it? awwww...puppy eyes~

i rate it 5 out of 5! watch it! u will laugh till the end, and touched deep down in ur heart.


btw, result is coming out molo! damn, im so panic now. *breathe in breathe out!* pray hard that i won get any C or B last sem. i will break down, i swear. sob sob...i scare my result for Bio and Stats.................i dreamt that i got B and C respectively! NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

"Point!"
"Squirrel!"
- Dug, from "Up" -

i guess i was just behaving so childish. yeah, expect too much, and so...followed by strong disappointment. i shall stop mourning for this. urgh.

greediness is something that is so devastating.

FUCKER!

i need to say something before i proceed my post for today. i will use a lot of FOUL words as i cnt think of any other things to express my furious and extreme anger. so do leave if you are so kind and innocent that cnt take these FOUL WORDS.

FUCKER!

FUCKER FUCKER FUCKER FUCKER!

DAMN DAMN DAMN!!!!

FUCKER!
who u think u are?
u are just a cousin of mine!
oh well, it's kinda pathetic that u are in hospital and u r the favorite niece of my mom
SO WHAT? U FUCKER!
are u that foolish?
are u that stupid?
to go for shark loan to pay the debt of ur dearest darling oh-so-good boyfriend?
FUCKER!
and now u r crying so terribly that u r in hospital and u cnt pay for the debt?
U FUCKER! FUCK OFF PLEASE!
can tears do anything for u?
can ur tears really beg for those ah long to give up the money u have owed?
HAHAHAHAHA U R SO FUNNY LITTLE GIRL!
oppps, u r actually 10 years elder than me! im so sorrie i forget about that. coz u behave just like a 18 years old girl.
U FUCKER!
where's ur mama when u cant pay the debt?
where's ur dad when u cnt pay the debt?
AND U DARE TO...BEG MY MOM TO PAY FOR YA?
WWWWOOOOWWWW HOW KIND?
FUCKER!
do u think 30K IS A SMALL MATTER?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA....

and u FUCKER!
THE MOST FUCK PEOPLE OF THE WORLD
THE RUBBISH!
THE GARBAGE
THE WORM
THE DIRTY DISGUSTING WORM!
U IDIOT! ASSHOLE!
U SUCKS!
FUCKER!
the darling of my dear foolish cousin
GAMBLE with her money
go for AH LONG WITH HER NAME AND IC
DRIVING TOYOTA VIOS WITH HER MONEY
LYING AT HOME FOR WHOLE DAY FOR NOTHING?
U ASSHOLE!
how can one person become so irresponsible?
he's like a PARASITE!
A LEECH SUCKING ALL THE MONEY!
FUCKER!
gf is dying in the hospital, yet he can grab her to AH LONG for money?
U FUCKER!
when all the adults are busy dealing with the debts THAT U LEFT BEHIND
YET U CAN SMILE AND LAUGH AND WATCH TV WITH UR GF IN THE HOSPITAL?
waaaahhhhh what a caring and loving bf u r
waaaahhhh wat a lovey dovey couple
FUCK OFF U LEECH!
u r so relax sitting there, and smirking at these adults running here and there
DO U THINK IT'S FUNNY?
DEALING WITH THOSE LOAN SHARKS?
U FUCKER!

30K?
HALO...
MY MOM IS NOT RICH
AND WHO ARE U TO MY MOTHER TO ASK HER PAY FOR U?
JUST A BF OF HER FAVORITE NIECE?
FUCK OFF U FOOL!
EVEN MY 4 YEARS IN COLL ONLY COST MY MOM 20K!
U....A TOTAL STRANGER
A SHAMEFUL PARASITE
A RUBBISH IN THE WORLD
WHO ARE U TO US?
WHY DO WE NEED TO SUFFER BECAUSE OF U IDIOT?
U THE GARBAGE
HOW COME GOT PEOPLE SO "JIAN GAK"
MY GODDDDDDDD!!!
DAMN!
U THINK IS EASY DEALING WITH THOSE AH LONG?
HOW IF THEY ANGRY OF MY PARENTS?
THEY WILL TURN THEIR TARGET AT US
AND IT'S OUR HOUSE WHO WILL GET THE WARNING LETTERS AND THE RED PAINT
FUCKER!!!!
WE NEVER GAMBLE
WE NEVER LOOK FOR AH LONG
YET U THE RUBBISH OF ALL
U THE UGLIEST FACE THAT I HAVE EVER SEEN
DEMAND US TO DO THIS FOR U AND UR GF?

IF NOT BECAUSE SHE'S IN HOSPITAL
I WON GIVE A DAMN
YES, MY MOM HELPS
BUT DO U KNOW HOW MANY SLEEPLESS NIGHTS SHE HAD?
SHE WAS SO WORRIED ABOUT U FUCKER!
HER FAVORITE NIECE, THE FIRST NIECE SHE HAS!
U FUCKER!
U KNOW HOW SAD SHE IS?
U KNOW HOW DISSAPPOINT SHE IS?
U KNOW HOW MUCH SHE CARES FOR U?
U FUCKEER!
U DONO ANYTHING!
ALL U KNOW IS TO GIVE THE MONEY TO UR VERY GOOD BF AND BEG HIM DUN LEAVE U!

"I CNT GET ANYONE BETTER!"
U FUCKER! EXCUSE!
"IM GONNA DIE OF THE DEBT, NOT OF THE DISEASE!"
U FUCKER! EXCUSE!
U R SUCH AN ASSHOLE!!!!!!!!!!!!

THE GUY! U THE PARASITE!
HAS THE THICKEST FACE, THAT EVEN THICKER THAN THE WALL OF THE GREAT WALLS!
U FUCKER!

I TELL U, IT'S NOT MY PLACE TO SAY ANYTHING, BUT I DO HAVE THE FREEDOM TO SAY IT HERE!
I REALLY REALLLY REALLLY HATE U FUCKER!
THE ENERGY, THE RISK THE MONEY THAT MY PARENTS HAVTA PAY FOR UR BLOODY IDIOT DEBT!
U KNOW HOW TERRIBLE IS THE ATMOSPHERE AT HOME?
U DONO, ALL U KNOW IS HAVE FUN AND GAMBLE AND LOSE AND ASK MONEY FROM UR GIRL AND GO FOR AH LONG WHEN U LOSE!
U ARE TOTALLY COMPLETLELY FUCKER!
I HAD NEVER HATE SOME ONE SO STRONG IN MY LIFE BEFORE!
U FUCKER!

I SWEAR, WHEN I AM 21, OFFICIALLY ADULT
I WILL STOP MY MOM FROM BEING SO KIND
KIND TO U LEECH, IS CRUEL TO MY MOM
I WILL NEVER LET THAT HAPPEN
U WILL SEE...


AT THE END OF UR DAY, U WILL GET WHAT U DESERVED!
I BELIEVED IN THAT
AND I HOPE U CAN SEE, WITH UR EYES! TO SUFFER AND TO PAY FOR IT!
U FUCKER!

u think that's too much of F word in it? ha, not enough, add on FUCK at every sentence i write please!

FUCK OFF!

movie trailers!

check this!

Alice in Wonderland Official Trailer

Johnny Depp and Tim Burton! an exciting movie to look forward to!

i wanna watch!

P license!

nothing much to talk about. picture speaks a thousand words!

death

err...another random thoughts at the middle of the night. well, i guess i had enjoyed a great time with him this afternoon in Pyramid and cannot sleep right now.

death

i was watching the HongKong drama, about the rice wan. err, kinda addicted. but there's this episode that caught myself in this thought.

death.

i used to think death, yeah u died, u lie there, a funeral, then no more. sad or grief? bereavement? aiya, u will get over it.

i changed my mind after that episode. the boss of the show, the great man, the wise man, had passed away just like that. i mean, according to them is a comma, not sure how it goes at the end, but for now he's dead to me. so anyway, he was suddenly walking on the street, then suddenly feel chest pain, most likely a heart stroke. then he fell down...

it reminds me of my grandpa. he passed away like that too. suddenly an intense chest pain, then pass away. i was crying as well at that time, but how to say? the feeling is not so strong yet. because we were not so close, a generation gap. so i feel sad without his presence, but...get over it very soon.

but how if someone that u really really love? like your mom? noone will nag u for not getting enough A's in UPSR or PMR?

like your dad? no one will cook the special and only one 100% breakfast whenever you are having an exam?

like your loved ones? who really cares for you?

like your friends? who are still with you after scolding and arguing with u?

i don't know. yeah, that's life. people come, people die. we live. and we do not want someone that we devote with to leave us. because we are selfish? no. because we are too possessive? no.

because we love. we care. we don't want them to go away. i want them to be with me. i want the memories. i do, i really do!

and the other reason i blog about this is because i had a bad dream just now. according to me, bad dreams have to tell. so yeah, i dreamt that my mom, she waved goodbye to me, telling a lot things that i need to take care of, then she walked into the coffin, close her eyes and pass away!

OMG OMGOMGOMGOMG!! THAT DREAM WAS FREAKING REALLLLLLLL!!!!
I SAW SHE CRIED. I SAW SHE LIFTING THE HEAVY COFFIN AND SHE CRAWLED INTO IT WHILE SHE IGNORED MY SCREAMING!!!!!!

THAT DREAM WAS SO REAL.
CANNOT TAKE IT.

saw an article today. aging people, some of them like to collect obituary. they will notice whoever had passed away in the newspaper, and collect them if the person is someone they know. and their common topic with their friends will be who will pass away first. which place will they go to and etc.

people, we are young yes. but death is just at our fingertips. you can die at the next moment. in a car accident. on a motorbike in the rain without the helmet especially. diseases. cancer. so on and so for. please, do take care. love your loved ones. do not regret it once it is over.

best wishes for my cousin and Jess's grandma.

working.

have been working again this week. nothing much to update actually. it just that the sales for this week is terribly bad. like really TERRIBLE. even the Watson is affected. i heard they had a meeting to discuss about it. so well, not my fault.

but it's true. H1N1 is really getting on a lot people's nerves. why some of them still don't bother about it and daring enough to come shopping just for the sake of pleasure? dun understand. how i wish to wear a mask when i was working. but yeah, it's rude. heard some cases in Mid Valley too. two reasons that a few people know about this. one, those cases are just rumors. but couldn't be. most of the PROMOTERS knew about it. except for those customers. two, the management cover it down.

whichever it is, just take good care of your health ya! drink water. wear mask. reduce going out yamcha or public places if it's unnecessary.

damn, i sound like a mother!

YOUTUBE

youtube again. i was bored. u see. haha, anyways, i will like to recommend u this. AWESOME was the only word i think of when i listen to this song.

Long Distance Brandy (COVER)

the girl really has a good voice, like what the comments wrote, she looks quiet yet she has packs quite a punch! check out for Stacy & Robbie. and not to forget, AHMIR. their cover for "knock you down" is completely MARVELOUS!

perfect dream girlfriend

first, let's put our hand together and give it the loudest applause! because this is my 100th post! hooray!!!!

okie anyways, back to the topic. perfect dream girlfriend. don't get me wrong. i'm straight. i do have a boyfriend as well. which is u-know-who. hahaha. but i do love to look at girls, especially pretty girls.

wonder who's in my list?
megan fox la. the hottest creature i had seen in the world! (so far) nose bleeding!
some taiwanese artists. they really look good, the body and the face.
and...im adding a new candidate.


taddaaa! thanks to her latest Malaysian fan - Ivan kang, who is so obsessed with her right now. i decided to watch her video in youtube. well, maybe she could be my future daughter-in-law. hopefully.

she's so sos sossosososoossoosososos ADORABLE!!!! waaaahhhhhhh....and she's living in UK. migrated since she was young. wonder why do i know abt it? nah, she talked about her own profile in youtube.

basically both us of weren't paying attention of whatever she had said. poor girl spoke for 10mins yet we still think she's crapping. BUT, she has a sweet voice! sound like candy. u know, SWEETTT...we are melting ivan melting melting!!!!!we were looking at her, and laughing at some of her reall really cute gestures! like "gorgeous gorgeous!" "hooohhhh" hahahahaha...

damn, im obsessed with her now. stupid ivan. go to work la u. he even subscribed to her channel! lalalala...

so watch this!



and this. she speaks a little cantonese. and yet so CUTE!


AND YEAH. btw she's Bubbi. awwww....even the name sounds cute.

damn. i shall stop this. i am straight. i repeat, i am straight haha.

and yeah, did i say that she uses a Macbook as well? GREAT MINDS THINK ALIKE! ivan we are in the same world! woo hooo~

*dedicated to IVAN KANG WEI-HAN

REST!

heyya, soree for the late update again. and i realize my blog is kinda dead, without my foolish laugh. it's alright. coz im back!!! MUAHAHAHHAHAHA (the laugh prolonged)

so anyways, have been working for past 4 days. i mean 4 days, CONTINUOUSLY. damn. do u know how tiring it is? it is all due to my mengada-ness, which im very proud of it!

okie, so i had been working for assignment (shhhh....), TRANSCRIPT and a Dove promoter in Watson Midvalley. the assignment, i cannot talk much about it, because i haven completed it yet. arhhh still got time k? let me rest rest rest.

but, to tell u, transcript work is never easy. i repeat, it is never easy. transcript is the most mengada job that i had ever worked with. the pay is high (secret!), so the foolish/childish me, who was desperate for money, got tempted. ah well, havta pay for the mengada-ness.

errrr...still blur? transcript is something like a marketing research before they launched a new product. like cars, frozen food or whatever. so the main purpose is to know what the consumer thinks about it. then those people carried out a discussion, which mostly last for 1 or 2 hours. then, my job is to put all the dialogues into words. YESH, let me emphasize it so u won't get it wrong. my job is to put all their dialogues, whatever sh*t they had said or mentioned, into words.

ahh think it's easy? like kacang putih? ha...i used to think like that too. but when i started to work on it, i realized that i had totally underestimated the difficulities.

first, in one second, there can be four to five dialogues going on. and some of them, speak either very soft, or used some "professional terms". like for example, i was doing about cars. and i was totally completely 200% a CAR IDIOT. the only thing i know about car is that it has 4 wheels and can move. the engines ar, brand ar, CC, ar or what-so-ever sound like some alien language to me. so yeah, when i was doing that transcript, i spent lotsa time to google about the terms (which i guess the spelling) and to understand what they were saying.

and a 3mins discussion, sometimes i will need an hour to complete it. wow, pretty awesome isn't it?

david gave me 2 transcript and 3 days to do it. the first day (WED) i spent it for farewell. jasmine mommy n jason. and im so regretted why my stupid indigestion pick the wrong timing and i MISSED the PHOTOGRAPH session! damn it! ah, out of topic. anyways, i started to do it on second day (THURS). and i assume i can finish it in 1 day. so 2 transcript 2 days. easy. ha...started from 3pm in the afternoon, i started to do my first transcript. and guess when i completed it, the next day 7pm. minus total of 6 hours sleep, 2 hours lunch and dinner. yeah. stared at MACKIE for a very long period of time. then the next one, i started doing it at 4pm on friday and 5am on saturday morning. without break! waaahhhh....

of coz, special thanks to Ping, who helped me for the first transcript. i could't join them for ABC and yamcha, yet she's willing to come and help me! TOUCHED! awwwww....and also, someone SPECIAL. he helped 80% for both of the transcript. yet i felt so damn guilty about it. thanks dear.

no offense, but i really sick of people who use this line
"How come ah?"
like come on, once or twice is okie. for 4 hours? nah, please thank you.

the next two days worked for Dove. nothing special, except for a new machine to test the mositure level of the skin. haha, i had fun with it, and it helped me to bond with the promoters in Watson. had a very good supervisor too! didn't even pressure me for sales. me likey! and yeah, did i mention that Chiausim n BKF had a very stupid/lame/funny competition for their moisture level for the skin? no? check here. haha...worth to read it.

nah, finally 1 day off. guess tomorrow shall start with the assignment. my customer is bugging me. motorbike test this thursday. wish me luck!

ps: Yong scolded me, for working even during holidays. cannot attend yamcha, or camps. sigh...dear i really wana join u all, but i just can't! i miss the time with u all too! sigh...it had been a long time since our last gathering.

alright. soree for the very long complains. i have potential to become Singaporean. hah, signing off. tata~

thanks to transcript. i know more about cars. and im gonna own this car some day. my goal when i am 25 years old. NISSAN TIIDA, i will get u after 7 years!
i must achieve it!
ps: me love WHITE CARS.

12.33am

heyya, i just came back from Morib, a trip with our gang of friends. nah, must be curious huh? i never mention this at all in my posts, like what i did for Penang trip? maybe...i guess i wasn't anticipating too much in the first place.

Maybe, i take things more serious than it's supposed to be. it mess up the routine, and the natural way.

Maybe, i was too perfectionism. i thought i was just average, but recently i found out that i really have the sense to do things perfectly, 100% and this caught me frustration.

Maybe, i was gloomy few days ago. that i perceived everything in blue, or grey. nothing seems to please me, or hype me up.

after all, that was all an illusion. ha, im attention seeker, remember? always acquire attention. always wanna be the center of affection.

i trap myself in a cage. i locked myself involuntarily. i wanna be happy, yet the cage suppress all my emotion, and force me to look things differently.

really, that is actually beginning stage of depression.

luckily, somebody managed to sense all my tiny changes in emotions. he dragged me out from the cage, brightened me, in his way. special thanks to him. sincerely.

im feeling better now.


sometimes, things just don't need to be so perfect. sometimes, the simpler it is, the happier we are.




suddenly, i feel relieved. tears are the best medicine.

so what im weak? so what im useless? so what im nobody? so what im an asshole that hated by everyone? im still JOJO. nothing can change the fact. why should i live up to reach other's expectations? why should i try my best, just to please certain people? i have my own life. i seek happiness, for myself. not for my parents, not for my friends.


happiness is just around us. with a smiley face. with a cheerful day. simple.


even a pair of annoying siblings can make my day!



phew, never knew that being so unproductive can be so relaxed. and yet, HAPPY. i like my day!



by the way, JOHNNY DEPP was really gorgeous! check out "Public enemies".


he played John Dilinger. i watched this last week, yet im blogging it now. haha, sorry for the really late update. juggling with my emotions last week. opps

SO GORGEOUS! *drooling*

and yeah, the most memorable scene will be the last scene. when his girlfriend cried over his death. Marion Cotillard portrayed the tough girl, and her sorrow of losing the one she loved.


i mean, i really felt the pain, even i never experience before, and i cannot affort the pain like she did. it was just...touched. my eyes watered. yet i wiped it away before it floods haha. i think u all should really watch this, or else u might not get a clue of what i said. haha...

watch it people! it worth the price!

"bye bye, black bird"
- Public Enemies -