CHINESE NEW YEAR!

yeah people, CNY is just around the corner. to be precise, two days left to CNY! now wait for my count, 1 2 3!!! YEAH!!!! woo hooo~~~ yehaaa~ *jumping up and down* aiks, can't u all be excited for this particular moment?

that's random. how lame of me?

anyways, im in the mood of celebrating CNY now! maybe in Subang or urban area, they don't feel the spirit of celebrating CNY. but well, im not from Subang either, i from Jenjarom! a place which 90% of the population are CHINESE. so CNY happened to be the most important event for all of us throughout the year. some rich auntie even started to go for beauty saloon or hair saloon since beginning of December. dun hide your giggles, just let it go. i thought they were too much. because they got nothing to do. i guess. too rich d ma...

when my dad drove into Jenjarom area, the first thing caught my eyes was a big red banner in front of the police station, written Happy Chinese New Year, in 3 languages. i was getting excited since then. after that, i went in DongZen for a while to help any decoration thingy. and Jeez, it was awesome! when all the lights were enlighten, the buildings even shimmer in the night and those flowers could be seen clearly! very very beautiful! all of you MUST pay a visit to there! i promise, you will never regret it!

so, im planning a trip to Jenjarom on 6th to 7th February 2009. no matter are you my Kisiao member anot, just come!! the more the merrier! Harmonie, dun be shy! dun hesitate! just come alright? Jenjarom people are hospitalness (dono got such word anot) and welcome every visitors with our warm hugs and hands! u all can stay overnight at my house, my rooms are large enough,so dun worry about accommodation. any details of the schedule, please refer to Kisiao blog, im lazy to write it again. www.kisiaounited.blogspot.com

so come k? promise?

see ya around and HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! *still squealing with exhilaration*

Forever.

reading novels of Stephenie Meyer, she always mentioned about Immortality and Forever. Bella and Edward will live happily ever after, Bella and Edward will love each other FOREVER as they will not age. However, i wonder, is the term [FOREVER] exists in our real life, despite of the wonderful setting in the novel?

Do love last forever? do FRIENDSHIP, especially, last forever? i doubt.

Friendship, based on what I've learned, is defined as a productive interpersonal relationship between minimum two parties, and it involves mutual positive regards. Friendship build on trust and believe. we believe our friends, forgive them if they've done something that hurt you, and also, we RELY on them. as time flies, friendship grows even more intimate and we would be getting closer to each other. close enough to self disclose some privacy stuff, like maybe guys, hot chick, gossip...close enough to share our problem, close enough to expect them to provide us some emotional support when we are upset.

yes, and that is what friends for! having friends by our side, is the best thing on the world! BEST FRIEND, stand the bigger portion in our daily life. it shouldn't fade by time, place or any other circumstances. Unfortunately, im facing this, right now.

i love friends. i have friends. and not to forget, i have BEST FRIENDS too! best friends are not only those always hang out with you, but those who will stay with you and the bond will never break even we are far apart. But now, the thing that i was afraid the most is happening. we DRIFT APART. it doesn't only exist in my nightmare, which caused me shed my tears on my pillow, but it happens right in front of me, in REAL LIFE. right now.

when?i am no longer feeling happy when i was standing beside you? those happiness and memories evaporated? when? i feel awkward that even thought i might not supposed to stand by your side? when? we lose our common topic and seem to treat each other like strangers?

betrayal? is that the word? no, it is not betrayal, because nothing had been done. i supposed that wasn't the right word. how about DISAPPOINTMENT? when i've started to lose my faith in you?

F.R.I.E.N.D.S L.A.S.T F.O.R.E.V.E.R?


*emo post, please ignore!

BREAKING DAWN!

I wana read BREAKING DAWN!!cnt wait for Monday now.

just finish reading ECLIPSE, and so far, it's my favorite. compared to NEW MOON. yucks! hate new moon. I love the proposing part, awww, it's so sweeettt~

anyways, a random post today. im very full now, coz ate steamboat again just now! i wonder how many times i eat steamboat in every month?

oh ya, i still HATE JACOB BLACK no matter what! i HATE BELLA as well for hurting EDWARD! issssssshhhhhhh!!! geramnya when i read the part where Bella kissed Jacob!!! ARRRRGGGGHHHH! I shall scream here, so noone can hear me!!! ARRRRRRRRRHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

signing out to watch TV. ps: i haven completed my 3 assignments yet, feel a little guilty but dun care...

Clubbing.

yes. Clubbing. i went CLUBBING last night.

well, i was "Club Virgin", named by Lett, which means somebody who had never been to a club before. of coz, when im in my home, my curfew is 10pm, cannot even go out for yamcha session! so how can i have chance to go clubbing when i was still in high school?

okie neways, Kristy brought me, Lett, Victor, and Ken to Bar Celona last night. we met up with Cally and her cousin over there. we reached there around 10.45pm, not even 11pm yet. the club was crowded, but everyone was so concentrated in drinking, only a few of them dancing at the dance floor. so Kristy, who was very eager to DANCE, drag all of us to dance, and it was a little awkward as only few of us syok sendiri up there.

but after 12pm, the music was more catchy than ever! all of them dashed to the dance floor and squeezed on there. due to the extreme crowdedness, i was SANDWICHED by three guys wei. it was very scary, coz one of them hug me from behind, traced from my back down to my waist and hip! i was frightened and dono how to run away as i was fully surrounded by them, all of them eyed me with certain kind of desire. yucks! Luckily, Lett spot my eyes, and she asked Cally's cousin to drag me down to our seats. phew, finally! i was escaped! from not becoming tuna fish at the dance floor, and not being molest by those bloody strangers!

after that, i dance due to my mood. like when some certain songs were played, i danced. i stood beside our seat and beside Cally. Cally, just like me, was frightened by them at the dance floor. so she sat and took a rest. then i dance with her cousin, at least he wouldn't dare to molest me like the other people did! but there's one more person kinda annoying to me. Ken. i had no idea why he started to follow me when i was dancing at the dance floor, and even i ran away from the dance floor to our seats, he came along also. then when i was dancing with tiffany (whoa she was so seductive! expert!!! n HOT!) he approached me and dance behind me! it was very...irritating u noe? i mean...err...i felt he was a little too much! dono la, today he even asked Chiausim for my number! oh no shoot!!!!! what the hell is going on?????!

the other thing that bothered me was the smoking environment. i noe, it is very common for them to smoke in a club. but i really cannot stand the scent! mixture of strawberry and dono what fruit flavor of cigaratte in the air. i could hardly breathe! especially when we dance right, we will inhale more air to provide oxygen for us. but imagine, when u take a deep breathe, arrrhhh, u smell SMOKES instead of oxygen or fresh air!!!! it was very horrible experience! i choked a few times. so i think next time i should go to the clubs which separate smoking and non smoking areas. my fren told me there's one in KL, so maybe it will be better. the worst thing is, my clothes stinks! even i soaked them in soap water overnight, and washed it again and again, the strong scent of cigaratte is still there! ewwwwwwwwwww....

oh ya, we clubbed till 2.15am and went mamak to eat something. Victor was drunk. so we need to let him breathe in some fresh air. and met up with Kristy's new fren. i was actually partially conscious, because i was too exhausted. so i left my body at mamak, and imagine that i had actually lying on lovely bed. after i took my shower and remove my make up (yeah make up, to make myself look more mature, so they wouldn't suspect me that i was actually under-aged. oh ya, i even exchanged IC with my fren! haha), it was 4.30AM! crappp!! so today i woke up with SWOLLEN EYES and havta wear specs to college! nicholas couldn't stop laughing at me in the class today!issshhh

neways, it was a memorable night for me. i will still go clubbing if there's a chance, but provided go to those clubs with separated zones and invite the PROPER people along, so i will not get irritated by SOMEBODY when i enjoy dancing in my little world.

ps: i slept from 11.30am to 6.30pm just now! so still a little...DIZZY! haha...

signing out~

PAin.

yeah, im in pain now. physically.

just came back from gym. finally, for the very first time, we CHEER team have our proper training! in a place with equipments and coach who train us. but seriously, it's not a funny matter. it was awfully PAINFUL!!!

i was used to the stretching routine in every of my cheer practice, so my flexibility was still acceptable. but when come to stamina and jumping, ohhh, that's a big NO NO! my stamina was terrible like shit! others were doing front roll and they blushed as the blood flew to their face, but me? whoa, i tell u, my face straight got pale instead of blushing! and i couldn't stand up and walk in straight line at all, as if i was drunk! it was so embarrassing that i need to take a rest first. Aniki said my face was as white as a piece of paper, with slightly green.

after that was quite okie. we did some practice, and it was a fruitful experience coz i really learned something new! kinda look forward to the coming practice, but havta pay RM75 per month! urgh...how am i supposed to get the money? ask from my mom? NO! work? that might work...but hopefully our team can get money through sponsor and fundraising, so i dun need to pay that much.

a lot of people fall sick recently. Jason is in hospital, Jasmine just recover from her fever, Victor got fever today. what happened? and i guess it's my turn now. gastric and headache came along! shoot! i guess it's time for me to sleep and take a rest. tomorrow may suffer from muscle ache, sigh...

nity everyone! *it's only 10pm*

Blaming.

this idea came across my mind this afternoon. blame. why do people blame others? will they feel better when there's an excuse for their mistakes? will they feel relief because they had pull themselves off? i have no idea, but i did feel bad about this friend.

he did quite bad for certain subjects and might need to retake it. so he seem to blame us. blame us for dragging him to hang out when he had quiz on the next day. blame us for letting him very busy and cannot focus on his studies. fine then. but the day we drag him out was his birthday! we just wanted him to have a memorable day, and we did not intend to let him do badly in his quiz?! excuse me?!!

i wasn't feeling well this afternoon, so i just keep quiet when he was complaining. okie, u win, u r the best, u should sit on the holy seat and everyone should greet u POLITELY, everyone will do everything good for u.

i am so pissed off! hey he put all the blame on us! had he thought of himself? the main reason he cannot score well is only personal factor, not the environmental factor! he reminds me what i learned in gen psy. attribution error: people seems to blame their failure on the external factors and grab their success as their own capability.

if he studied earlier, and did not burn mid night oil, can he score well in his quiz?

if he did badly for the certain quiz, can he study even harder for the coming quiz and exams?

if he really concentrate when he was studying, but not dividing his attention in games and other things, will he be able to pass the subject?

the first day of my 3rd sem drove me crazy, friends? i sneer. and this is what we call friends. and i got stupid assignment on the first day in algebra class. u know what we suppose to do? we havta measure the shortest distance from subang to penang, and label all the landmarks along the road. what is this? geography? just because we might have a cycling trip from subang to penang doesn't mean we havta do this right? this is not our job AT ALL! grrr...

hopefully my mood will get better tomorrow. i think im suffering from severe headaches recently, havta go for medical check.

results taken!

okie i promise this is gonna be a very short one.

i took my result this morning. im the third to take the result wei, scary. okie anyways, im satisfied with my result. manage to maintain my CGPA of 3.7. haha...

i've nightmares the night before. stupid. dream about vampire, too much of twilight i guess. haha, but that did frighten me from my sleep.

oh sorry, i continue about my result first. i was very worry about my interpersonal communication and english comp 2. if i got 2 Bs, i cannot maintain my CGPA anymore! but now, i got 3.86, which is ord quite good.

but still, thank godness, i got B for english comp 2, ms padma said only a few people got A. then out of my expectations, i got A for interpersonal! OMG, couldn't really believe it! coz i did quite bad for my presentations as many of u know. so i think maybe there must be some confusions or mistakes or stuff like that. but dun care, im not gonna recheck! muahaha!

As for gen psy, effective listening, and public speaking, im very happy for the result, coz im sort of confident.

enough of crapping, signing out to sleep. too tense for past few days.

oh ya, may update about edu fair in KLCC tomorrow and Sunday. coz im working as student helper. hope can see a lot of HOT GUYS. waakakaka....

nites...



getting a little HIGH?
JoJo

Lost



I'm lost.

Lost in my pathway to future.

Lost in my faith to my studies.

Lost in relationships.

Lost in Friendships.

I'm neither too happy, nor too sad today. just too many things in my head.

I'm confused. i ponder deep on where to go. to US? to stay in SEGi? to pursue in psychology? to change my subjects for the coming semester?

this holiday allows me to think twice, maybe trice or more than that, about my future. I'm currently surfing information on US uni, i had chosen one, not to inform u all until it is confirmed. checking through the fees, scholarship and my mom's friend in US. thinking the money, the small stuffs required to study in overseas like TOEFL, visa cards and etc. would i be one of them in the pictures? to broaden my horizon in a different country? able to breathe in different air on a different land? all these questions bombard me throughout the holidays.

and also, relationships. my faith in guys is fading. to all the guys. oh, not to worry, im not homo, for now and forever. just that, i realize every guy have a very strong ego, always think they are right, think everything in their shoes. even those who might be intellectual, they are still the same. bias on certain people and certain things. i'm bored, i will not gonna entertain them any longer. i will just listen and give some respond like "uh-huh", "ya", nodd and stuff. to trust them completely like i used to do? NO WAY! *sorry if u are offended*

friendship. another piece. i feel...how to describe? i feel i prefer to stay alone recently. maybe eat alone, shop alone, study alone. this is so weird, i used to afraid of loneliness. but now, i realize there's nothing bad about being alone. i have my own world. of course, it doesn't mean i will drift apart from my gang, i think i need some time on my own. so...yeah dun ask me why if i start to shift my timetable k? promise?

phew...see? i ruin my blog again! okie enough of those bloody emo posts, let's enjoy my recent outings! we've gathered quite often this month, coz we may not have the chance if college an school starts. so as usual, we took a lot of pictures. take note, it's a lot. haha, i've chosen some. so sit back and relax. my best buddies ever! and i never forget to CAMWHORE! hoho~


look at everyone's face. yong won the most yong sui award!ahzi! finally we met after half a year~
i love this doll! it's so soft and nice to cuddle...awww, how i wish it's mine!

that's all from me today! signing out for another blog. haha, running two blogs.

tata~

mood swings.

i have terrible mood swings as most of my friends know. i have been kinda emo as well as happy this week. weird huh? but i can do it. having two entirely different mood at once.

let's talk about happy things, which is a few.

yesterday, i went dongchan again to cook porridge. remember what i mentioned before in my previous post? im gonna cook vegetarian porridge! okie, it's not the porridge that u cook at home, i'll show u some pictures later. pictures speak thousand words. well, to give u a clear picture, we are cooking this in conjuction of Dharma Gem Celebration. the porridge are used to serve our God and give to everyone FREE. i went in about 10pm last night and stayed overnight there. have a pillow talk sessions with my ji muiS and didn't sleep for the whole day. as i had my bloody car lecture in the morning, i cnt help them for preparing the ingredients in the morning. so now, ENJOY.

we had to dress like this when we were cooking the porridge. look like as we are going for an operation eh? haha...we all look weird with the shower cap!

see the huge wooden stick? we had to use that to stir the pot of porridge the whole time, to prevent it sticks to the bottom of the pot. and man, it's tiring! it took 1 hour and 30 minutes to cook one big pot of porridge! of coz, we take turns to stir. the flame was hot and everyone was sweating even it was raining last night.

there, it's the BIG pot of porridge! we had 8 pots of porridge like this! and it's for 7000 people! amazing right?

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haha...happy?

okie let's proceed. we cooked the porridge till 2pm and gonna pack them at 5am in the morning. remember? we are cooking for 7000 people. so we pack into this...


this is just a small part of the porridge packed. we gonna distribute it in pasar, and bring it to penang for the senior citizens who always come to dongchan every CNY.

well, working with them made me feel happy, especially after i have been emo for the whole week. i felt satisfied. eating the porridge which i helped to pack and cook! wow~

farewell. 08

well, i am supposed to blog about this straight after new year countdown right? haha, i admit im a little bit of slow. but still, HAPPY NEW YEAR! it's a brand new year in 2009!

to flashback what have i done in 2008, i realized it's kinda meaningful. okie im not going to remorse everything here, just a simple one.

January: i was working. the first thing that i have done on the first day of 2008 was, MOPPING. serious, not joking. now i really feel mad at my stupid manager. u know what, he forced me to mop and clean up the restaurant while he sneaked out to watch fireworks. gggrrrrr.... so 3 days later, i changed my job, which is my turning point of my life.

February: Chinese New Year! ASTRO and MyFM came to Jenjarom to have a countdown concert on new year eve. i met up with my buddies who went NS, we had lotsa funs! not to forget, we GAMBLED! muahaha, that's the best thing of CNY. however, i had only 3 days holidays! aiks...havta go back to work

March: working again. i had taken my SPM result and my hardwork were paid! i couldn't remember how i survive through that period of time when i was preparing SPM. serious, i dun think i can do the same thing right now. studied for whole two months, woke up at 5.30am to school, reach home around 9 or 10 something after tuition, then straight away studied till 1 or 2 in the morning. haha, and this is how i get my dark circles.

April: the last month of working. i had signed up for SEGi College and resigned for my job. miss my colleague they all and my manager, who really really taught me a lot of things.

May: rotting at home while waiting for college. i spent my time shopping, watching dvds that i borrowed from my auntie and i supposed to finish it after SPM. then 26th May 2008, i came to SEGi. that day was my mom's birthday. i think that will be the most memorable birthday for her because she havta send me to subang and go back alone. sending daughter away especially on her birhday?

June: start my semester. i was a little awkward as i didn't know anyone in college. spent some days eatin alone and do everything alone. looking forward to know many friends.

July: got to know some friends. wasn't that close either. felt that the subject i had taken was actually a piece of cake. chemistry, basic comp. chemistry is my best subject in high school. and not to sound showing off, the questions of chemistry national quiz are tougher than those in college.haha...

August: semester end. went SLC camp and strengthen bond of friendship. start getting closer to each other. the most crucial one was the lagoon trip. 10 of us, 5 girls and guys became the best friends! the most memorable outing i have ever had. me, chiausim, Ivan, Justin, Loon, Leonard, Nicholas, Leit, Joan, Jean. i guess i will never have the same memory any more. went to Melaka on my own( alone) and meet up my friends there. i was brave enough to take bus to Melaka and even got aboard on the bus in Melaka at night alone. cool huh? we actually went for a concert, 8TV Summer concert.

September: new semester again. nothing big happened this month. just have fun with my friends.

October: my BIRTHDAY! oh ya, i celebrated with my friends in college for the first time, without my family and buddies at Jenjarom. not to forget, we had launched KiSiao United in 31st of October!*clap clap*

November: the most stress month. i experienced a very hard period as everything clustered together on one week. in one week, i had a few presentations, debate, public speaking speech and an assignment. some of the presentations ran well, but some the opposite way. i had burst out into tears for lotsa times in this month, especially for my public speaking play and the stress that i must maintain my CGPA of 3.7.

December: months of HOLIDAYS! my public speaking play was a success, thank god. thanks to everyone who had committed. i had my holidays which half of my time went to dongchan for camps and events like what i used to be. to those who do not know what is dongchan, it's a Buddhist temple in Jenjarom, my source of emotional support. so now i am cheerful as the beginnin of semester after i recharged!

the only wish in 2009, great mind. this is what i want. to me and my friends